Sometimes I feel the strong radiance of the sun, or a beautiful performance, or just looking at the face of my wife and kids. I experience this radiance coming out of them, like it is pushing its way to me, and I bask in its outward rays.
I also experience an attraction in these same experiences. A desire to be closer, more connected in the experience. I experience this attraction as a pull, like they are pulling me towards them.
A push I get. A pull I get. A push and a pull at the same time? How can that be? Mustn’t it be coming in or going out, pushing or pulling?
When I experience something that I am part of, I feel both its radiance, its vibrancy, and I feel its attraction–the desire to engage more deeply in it. If I think of the essence of these experiences as geometries with higher dimensions, with dimensions that include my four-dimensional experience of it in space (3D) and time (1D) and dimensions that include the experience of energy, of deeper shared purpose, of reflection, of witnessing, of the creative process, then I am experiencing many more than four dimensions in the direct experience I am having. I know this higher-dimensional experience, and I know the experience of the simultaneous push and pull.
Now, what if I try to make sense of this experience from my “normal” 3D or 4D world? In lower dimensions, I feel apart from the higher dimensions. They are not “here now” with me, in my four dimensions. They feel like something else, out there. I can see and touch the table in front of me or the face of my child. I experience being with them over time. Those other dimensions are not here right now in the same way.
Feeling separate from them, I feel the push from them and the pull to them.
And, when I simply sit in the higher-dimensional experience, I feel like a part of it–no push and no pull, rather one with. So, maybe I experience the push from something and the pull towards it when I bring only the lower dimensions of the experience into my awareness. When I bring the higher dimensions into my awareness, I feel at one with. Not apart, rather a part.
Hat tip to BB for sparking this insight.